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why liaa31.co.cc?
i couldn't find something else, this is my blog. i like 31. and i hadn't got any fixed name for this blog.

why do you often use english?
i don't know. i think it's an universal language, and writing this page using english is make me feel comfortable. it also helps me train my grammar and vocab.
that's obviously profitable.

how about people who read this blog?
hm, i have ever considered that. i am afraid they'll be uninterested w/ my writing, or maybe didn't understand or feel comfort about this. but, again, i hope it doesn't bother them when reading this page although i'm using english. .__.

why do you blog?
actually i love wrriting. sometimes, i'm an awkward person in sharing something/idea real world. in that kind of time, i will try to write/draw it, or telling it w/ another way. and when i got something to tell off, and i'm home, and it's not specifically pointing for anybody, i'll do blogging. or maybe write at somewhere else.

so, all of you post is about your general idea?
nope. sometimes i write about poems, something privat, but not in 'to-the-point' way.
it's a virtual world, virtual society, and i'm not gonna share something important or a kind of privacy in here.

will you keep writing here?
i'm at 3rd grade of HS, it definitely will make me busy and stressed out. but i'll try to maintain my blog. beside, this blog will be my trash bag if i find something to share. ainsi, bien entendu, je serai de retour :)

an amazing line

Alhamdulillah
Allahu Akbar
Subhanallah
Astagfirullah
aku nemuin suatu kejadian menarik ! *maaf lebay

tapi sebelumnya aku pengen ngucapin dulu, selamat datang buat RAMADHAN. terimakasih ya Allah telah memberi kesempatan untuk mencicipi bulan penuh berkah ini..
semoga kami, semua hamba-Mu dapat menunaikan ibadah dan amalan pada bulan puasa ini dengan sebaik - baiknya. amin.. :)


oke. back to this case
i just realize, this last hour, that my bestie at JHS, dating YKW. someone from the past.
oh my god
I AM LAUGHING SOOO BAD
no, i'm not mad. sad. envy. curious. shocked.
not even feel a piece of those negative thinking.
i am so relieved.
lega sumpah.. LEGA :))

selamat ya R**I* dan **O
hahaha
demi apa nggak ada yang ngasih tau aku
sumpah ya
congratulation
i hope both of you could be forever
i am sorry for the man, i've ever done something wrong.
but now you've got my bestie
and if, you ever make her cry,
you'll directly back to the first place of my blacklist

selamat yaa buat yg cewek
aku masih inget kamu bikin novel buat aku tentang 'your own present boy nowadays'
hillarious!
kebetulan atau.. TAKDIR?
:)



selamat berbahagia deh buat sahabatku, R
demi apa kamu orang terbaikku dulu. muah2
semoga dia nggak nyakitin kamu
langgeng yaa
love is all around both of you, couple
♥

going to (a particular) college?

hello there ☺
i'm a third grader of high school now. it's time to make a huge decision.
a really really important one. COLLEGE LIFE. aargh (-,-)
well, I'm not good to tell it by a sequence writing. so, let me share it with Q&A mode. enjoy!

***

Q: are you going to continuing your education on college?
A: yes. Insya Allah. absolutely. I really mean it.

Q: how far is your limit point to decide it?
A: err about 8 months maybe?

Q: are you ready? i mean now, this time, literally?
A: okay. this is complicated.
for the being a college student, i am so ready.
but before that, for competiting at UAN and SPMB or PMDK or SNMPTN etc., i'm not ready. yet.

Q: what will you do to fix that?
A: pushing my limit. getting closer to Allah (amiin). and change my habits.
my whole habits that have correlation to my success.

Q: do you believe you can do that?
A: YES. YES. I TRUST ALLAH, I TRUST MYSELF, I TRUST MY FAMILY.

Q: have you considered about its cost?
A: about the money, i do. and it's really freaking me nuts.
paying for a college fee is like burning our parent's money. (although it's obviously done w/ great payback)
that's why i'll try to get a scholarship. i really want a scholarship :(

Q: err.. what about your family and friends?
A: family? they're obviously support me in every single time. i have a great prime family. and a great big family too.
about friends, i love them. much. so so. but it's time to be independent. i mean, i will not depend on friends in taking chances to continue my own struggle.
beside, they're (literally) still my competitor too :p

Q: and your crush?
A: he has been supporting me for the last 2 years and i believe whatever it is, he believe that i can choose a good way under the blessing of my parent and Allah SWT.
it's a kind of LDR but i think we're gonna be fine because we're not physically bounded. we're a great partner, a best friend, and it'll always be the same straight way. we're moslem. may Allah blessed us. amin ☺

Q: so, you're confident enough to start your struggle now?
A: confident? I don't know.
i just try to be strong. brave, and well prepared. i think it's gonna be followed by the confidence.

Q: well, i think it's enough. isn't it?
A: LOL~ whatever



Q: one last question, where have you planned to study next actually?
A: i dont know yet. seriously. curious? better you just wait and see ;)

DARE TO BE SOMETHING?

"courageous
brave
fearless
confident
daring
venturous
gallant
reckless
bold"

all of them is pointing for an exact behaviour,
which is very strong, meaningful, and indefectible.

once you lose it, you'll lose your direction. your power. your passion.
it's not really about sovereignty, dominance, and all 'trashy' things to grab and rule the whole world.
it's about being honest to yourself. using your ability. pushing your limit. beat your fear.
it's about you.
personal. not the global things.
world, society, moreover other people. a person. your enemy.
no, it's all about you.

you have it. inside your blood. along your breath. between your heart's beats.
everytime you doubt, every single second you feel ashamed, afraid, losing your bravery, just listen to your voice and remember.
everybody have fear. they will always have it. wherever, whoever, whenever.
BUT LISTEN. the one who have fear, is the one who can have courage.

you know why?
because courage is a defense, a resistance to fear. IT'S NOT AN ABSENCE OF FEAR.

be brave. challenge your limit.
later, when you look back, you'll see that you've done it already.

PENAT

gadis itu, dia ada di titik jenuh. capek
ngelihat tugas - tugas sekolah yang nggak bakal berhenti semester ini
ngurus ini itu yang jadi tanggung jawab tiap peran yang dimainkan
njalani hari - hari tanpa ada motivator
belajar tiap sekolah sampe otaknya males
sampe matanya yang minus makin lelah mbaca alfabet yang tertera
cari uang . uang . uang . buat acara yang panitianya sendiri nggak tau mau diapain
ngalah di tiap kesempatan
sedangkan mereka apa
cuma bisa ngurut dada
seakan nggak bisa bantu dan berperan apa-apa
muak banget dengerin basa basi
kalo mau frontal, silahkan. tapi jangan backstab
kasihan, niatnya hanya ingin belajar
dengan normal.
tanpa ada kericuhan
orangtuanya sibuk. kerja. cari uang lagi
dia dirumah, lagi2 ngalah sama adeknya
dibela2in ngurus adek. nanti pas ditinggal sebentar masih dibilang apatis sama adek

does anybody care?
jaman sekarang orang ngeliat dari RESULT bukan PROCESS
bener2 panggung sandiwara
orang ngelihat yang dia lihat
ngritik apa yang dia nggak suka
memuja apa yang dia cinta
nggak mencari tahu apa yang dia nggak tahu


tak tahulah.
biar malam menjaga tidurnya
dan merajut doanya agar esok dunia lebih mencintainya